Losing

What's the worst thing you've ever lost? What was it when you were young? What was it during your teenage years? Have you ever tried losing something very important and no one could get it back for you? I've lost my mom recently. Why did this happened? Why her? Her leaving is too sudden that none of us could accept it. I've never felt this painful and so unwilling before. I would rather losing my own life than losing her I miss her so much. I've lots of things to tell her even on the day she let go of her last breath I have things to tell and ask her. I was planning to ask her after dinner. God didn't give me a chance. God didn't give my mom a chance to fulfill her promises. Who am I to reach for when I'm afraid, when I am ill, when I'm happy and upset? Who's gonna force me to see a doctor and remind me to take my medicine when I'm not feeling well? Who's gonna nag me when I injured myself? Who's gonna inform me on the latest news in newspaper? Who's gonna make arrangements for me when I'm uncertain of everything? Not only I've lost my mom, I've lost the greatest teacher, a good advisor, my bravest protector, a leader and most important of all my best friend.

She's my everything. Mom, I'll miss you always.