Finally something to be glad of

I got a new friend lately, the only happy news I got for these few months. Those who know me really well will understand how hard is it for me to get new friend. I'm very anti-social and lack of confident, I only have a few people that I call friend and it is still less than 5 even after this new one. I locked myself beneath and make sure no one comes in easily because I'm afraid to be betrayed.


Sometimes I feel I'm very weird, why can't I be like others talk more to people. It's like most of the people is stranger to me. I feel sorry to those who wanted to be friend with me but I blocked them in a sense of keeping quiet or keep my answers as short as possible when I am questioned. It needs to be very comfortable before I call that person a friend. I know I'll be lonely like this, I tried to open up to others but it just don't work that way. I feel very insecure I don't like that feeling.


This new friend is special among the friends I have, the other day when she came to work she gave me a hug which made me feel shy but it's very warm and sweet of her. I feel comfy and safe with her. Well, I don't know what she think of me (annoying perhaps) but overall I like her and this is enough to make me happy :)