I've always been a person who does things wholeheartedly but there's one major problem, I do things for people, e.g supervisor, team leader, manager, etc... Until the moment I work for my current company I still does the same although it seems to others I'm leading a team. I felt embarrassed each time people had that thought of me, because I know the fact that I'm just a loser.
Well, I cannot deny that I've learnt and grew quite a bit in Glocomp. To an extend where I started to wonder is this all I can reach? Yes, my boss has been throwing me opportunities but I know very well those are the things he wanted me to do instead of my own initiatives. Again, this is the issue I've said earlier, I'm doing things for people. Year 2016 was a confusing year for me, I tend to halt and really wonder what do I want to do. At times negativity attacks me, especially my age factor and the bloody fact that I have freaking high commitment. I'm getting older and still not started my own journey yet, this sucks! But I think I got over it by throwing this thought away. Pulling myself back actually hits me badly in my work performance, I can't figure out what do I want and where should I head to. It was the time around end of November to beginning of December that I encountered a Digital Marketing Bootcamp at the NEXT Academy. I always had good intuition and it often helps me to make good decisions. Initially, I did not pay much attention to it but I did research about them gradually and finally made a decision to join the bootcamp. Unlike others in the training, I did not join the class with a strong business intention nor am I moving towards the startup journey. After joining them, I realised there are many youngsters out there who have dreams and high hopes. At some point it actually made me think that the children nowadays who focused so much in getting a degree is somewhat wasting time.
Let me make it straight, you will not walk out of that bootcamp and become a digital marketing master in just that short 5 weeks but you'll definitely learn something out of it and it's something really good! I promise! The trainers and students were fun and we all had so much fun, I love going to class. I flashed back to moments where I was lost, I realised there're some clues now. In life, I always believe, as long as you carry on you'll find the answer eventually. I found a clue that gave me a new path, I'm thinking whether I should start something on my own, but I also understand my biggest disadvantage. Well, I put this aside to enjoy my Chinese New Year but today something striked me. I believe digital advertising will be the next big thing in Malaysia, I do understand this is not new in many countries but Malaysia has always been slower. This is also the thing that my company is focusing on, I've been helping my boss to grow it. Although I've been throwing much effort into it but again I'm doing things for people. I have a selfish thinking, can I put a fullstop to it and turn the other way round. For the first time, I want to do it for myself.
Maybe this is what I should do in Year 2017....
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